shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari100. dakshin yatra ka vichar
prabhu ne hansate hue kaha- ‘guru maharaj ! apaki to door se hi charanavanhdana karani chahiye. abhi tak maian apake kathor niyam vale shvabhav se ekadam aparichit tha. vaise kahane ke liye to maianne sannhyas dharan kar liya hai; kinhtu bhagavat-bhakht-premiyoan ki upeksha mujhase ab bhi nahian ki jati. unake prem ke pichhe maian niyam-upaniyamoan ko apane-ap hi bhool-sa jata hooan. ap isase samajhate haian ki dharm-viruddh kam karata hooan. ap kathor niyamoan ke banhdhan mean hi mujhe jak de rahane ka upadesh kiya karate haian. mujhe sharir ka bhi to hosh nahian rahata’ phir apake karkash aur kathor niyamoan ka palan maian kis prakar kar sakooanga. isaliye ap mere shvatanhtr vhyavahar ko dekhakar sada mujhe tokate raheange- yah mere liye asahy hoga. isaliye maian akela hi jaooanga.’ dhire se darate-darate jagadananhd ji ne poochha- ‘prabho! yah to ham apaki batoan ke dhang se hi samajh gaye ki ap kisi ko bhi sath n le jayange. kinhtu jab prasang chhi d hi gaya hai to maian bhi janana chahata hooan ki mera parithyag kis dosh ke karan kiya ja raha hai?’ prabhu ne joroan se hansate hue kaha- ‘aur kisi ka to le bhi ja sakata hooan, kinhtu jagadananhd ji ko sath le ana to maian kabhi bhi pasand n karooanga. jab tak inaki ichhchha ke anusar maian vhyavahar karata rahooan, tab tak to ye prasanhn rahate haian, jahaan inake manobhavoan mean tanik-si bhi thes lagi ki ye phoolakar kuphpa ho jate haian. inaki manovaanchha ko poorn karana meri shakti ke bahar ki bat hai. inake manoanukool bartav karane se to maian sanhyas-dharm ka palan kar hi nahian sakata. ye mujhe khoob bdhiya padarth khate dekhakar sukhi hote haian, mujhe achhchhe vashtroan mean dekhana chahate haian. maian khoob sunhdar shayhya par shayan karooan tab ye prasanhn hote haian. maian sanhyas-dharm ke viruddh sansari vishayoan ka upabhog kabhi kar nahian sakata. isaliye inake sath se to akela hi achhchha hooan.’ itana kahakar prabhu mukunhd ke mukh ki or dekhane lage.mukunhd chupachap baithe the, unaki aankhoan mean labalab jal bhara hua tha; kinhtu vah bahar nahian nikalata tha. prabhu ki mamatabhari chitavan se vah jal apane-ap hi aankhoan ki koroan dvara bahane laga. prabhu ne mamathv pradarshit karate hue kaha– ‘kaho, tum bhi apana dosh sunana chahate ho ?’ |
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