shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari2. isht-prarthana
kada vrindaranye vimalayamunatirapuline pyare! tumase kis mukh se kahooan, ki mujhe aisa jivan pradan karo. chirakal se mahatmaoan ke mukh se sunata chala a raha hooan, ki tum nishkianchanoan ke priy ho, jinhoanne abhyantar aur brahy donoan prakar ke parigrah ka parityag kar diya hai, jinake tum hi ekamatr ashray ho, jo tumako hi apana sarvasv samajhate hoan, unhian ekanishth bhaktoan ke hriday mean akar tum virajaman hote ho, unhian ke jivan ko asali jivan bana dete ho. unhian ke tum pyare ho aur ve tumhean pyare haian. pyare! is pamar prani se tum kaise pyar kar sakoge? vanchana nahian, atyukti nahian, nath! yah kaise kahooan ki banavat nahian, kintu tum to antaryami ho, tumase koee bat chhipi thode़ hi hai, is adham ka to tumhare prati tanik bhi akarshan nahian. roj sunata hooan amuk ke oopar tumane kripa ki, amuk ko tumane darshan diye, in prasangoan ko sunakar mujhe adhir hona chahiye, kintu kripalo! adhir hona to alag raha, mujhe to vishvas tak nahian hota, ki aisa hua bhi hoga ya nahian. bahut chahata hooan, tumhara smaran karooan, man mean tumhean chho dakar doosara vichar hi n uthe, kan tumhare gun-kirtanoan ke atirikt doosari saansarik batean sunean hi nahian. jihva nirantar tumhare hi namamrit ka pan karati rahe. netroan ke sammukh tumhari vahi lalit tribhangiyukt baanki chitavan nrity karati rahe. pairoan se tumhari pradakshina karooan. karoan se tumhari pooja-archa karata rahooan aur hriday mean tumhari manohar moorti ko dharan kiye rahooan, kintu natanagar! aisa ek kshan bhi to hone nahian pata. man n jane kya ool-tamool sochata rahata hai jab kabhi smaran ata hai, to man ko bar-bar dhikkarata hooan, ‘are nich! n jane too kya vyarth ki batean sochata rahata hai! are, un manamohan ki chhavi ka chintan kar jisake bad phir koee chintaniy chij hi shesh nahian rah jati, kintu nath! vah meri sikh ko sunata hi nahian. n jane kitane din se yah in ghatapatadikoan ko sochata a raha hai. vishayoan ke chintan se yah aisa vishayamay ban gaya hai, ki tumhari or ate hi kaanpane lagata hai aur age badhana to alag raha, char kadam aur pichhe hat jata hai. kaise karooan nath! anek upay kiye, apane karane yogy sadhan jahaan tak kar saka sab kiye, kintu is par kuchh bhi asar nahian hua. ho bhi to kaise? isaki dori to tumhare hath mean hai. |
tika tippani aur sandarbh
- ↑ yamuna ji ka sundar pulin ho, vrindavan ke sundar vanoan mean vanshi bajate hue haladhar aur sudama adi pyare gopoan ke sath ap vicharan kar rahe hoan. he mere prananath! he mere madanamohan! o mere chitachor! mere aise din kab aveange, jab maian tumhari is prakar ki chhavi ko hriday mean dharan kiye pagaloan ki bhaanti krishn-krishn chillata hua apane jivan ke sampoorn samay ko nimishako naee bita dooanga.
sanbandhit lekh
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