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shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari
2. isht-prarthana
maian haryo kari jatan bahut vidhi atisai prabal ajai.
‘tulasidas’ bas hoy tabahian jab prerak prabhu barajai..
pyare prabhu! jara baraj do. ek kshan ko bhi tumhare premasagar mean doob jay to yah jivan sarthak ho jay. yah kalevar nihal ho jay. jibh nana prakar ke rasoan mean itani asakt hai, ki ise tumhare nam mean maja hi nahian ata. nirantar svadu-svadu padarthoan ki hi vanchha karati rahati hai. hathat ise lagata hooan, kintu beman ka kam bhi kabhi thik hota hai? nath! ab to bas tumhara hi ashray hai.
tumhare prati anurag nahian, vishayoan se vairagy nahian, jivan mean yatharth tyag nahian. jivan kya hai, poora janjal bana hua hai. chahata hooan, anany hokar tumhara hi chintan karooan, nahian kar sakata. ichchha hoti hai, jivan mean yatharth tyag ho, nahian hota. sochata hooan, sansar se uparam hoooan, ho nahian sakata. parigrah se jitana hi door hone ki ichchha karata hooan, utana hi adhik sangrahi banata jata hooan. tumhare charanoan se prithak hone se aisa hona avashyambhavi hai.
sharir ko sukhaya. titiksha ka dhoang racha. dhyan, jap, yog, asan sabhi taraph man ko lagaya, kintu tumhari yatharthata ka pata nahian chala. tumhare prem mean pagal n ban saka. hir-phirakar vahi sansar bhaanti-bhaanti ka roop rakhakar samane a gaya. tum chhipe hi rahe. apane oopar ab vishvas nahian raha, yah sharir rogoan ka adda ban gaya hai. netroan ki jyoti abhi se kshin ho gayi, dant khokhale ho gaye. pachan-shakti kam ho gayi, vayu ke prakop se sharir ke sabhi avayav vedanamay ban gaye, phir bhi yatharth jivan labh nahian kar saka. ab sab taraph se harakar baith gaya hooan, ab to ek yahi bat soch li hai, jo tum karaoge karooanga, jahaan rakhoge rahooanga aur jaisa nach nachaoge vaisa nachooanga. to bhi pyare! is jivan mean ek hi sadh hai aur vah sadh ant tak bani hi rahegi. ek bar sabako bhoolakar tumhare charanoan mean pagal ki bhaanti lot-pot ho jaooan, yahi ek hardik vasana hai.
aha! ye sabhi saansarik vasanaean jab kshay ho jayangi, jab ekamatr tum hi yad ate rahoge, sote-jagate athoan pahar tumhari manohar murali ki mithi-mithi dhvani hi sunayi deti rahegi, tumhari us mand-mand muskan mean hi chitt sada gote lagata rahega aur maian sabhi prakar se lajja, sankoch tatha bhay ko tyag kar pagaloan ka-sa nrity karata rahooanga, tab yah jivan dhany ho jayaga, yah sharir sarthak ho jayaga. nath! mujhe rone ka varadan do, rota rahooan, pagal ki bhaanti sada roooan, uthate-baithate, sote-jagate sada in aankhoan mean aansoo hi bhare rahean, rona hi mere jivan ka vyapar ho. khoob roooan, har samay roooan, har jagah roooan aur jor se rote-rote chaitanyadev ki bhaanti chilla uthooan-
he dev! he dayati! he bhuvanaikabandho!
he krishn! he chapal! he karoonaikasindho!
he nath! he raman! he nayanabhiram!
ha! ha! kadanu bhavitasi padan drishorme..
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