नन्दनन्दन -सुदर्शन सिंह चक्र पृ. 457

nandanandan -sudarshan sianh 'chakr'

73. chandravali-ras mean man-bhang sab samajhati haian- isaliye samajhati haian ki maian poore prayatn se aisa prakat karati hooan ki maian shriradha ki pratispardhini hooan. yah mera abhiman hai, meri adhamata hai. maian vivash hooan- maian kahaan radha ke saman apana sukh, apana sarvasv un shyamasundar par samarpit kar pati hooan. maian svarthini hooan. apana sukh mujhe chahiye. maian un nandanandan ke samipy ke bina rah nahian pati. mere samip apani dhrishtata ka apane pragamy ka hi to sahara hai. ve param sankochashil haian. kisi ka hriday bhagn kar nahian sakate. unake is svabhav ka maian sada anuchit labh uthati rahi hooan. maian unaka patuka pak d looan to saday mujhe asvikar nahian kar pate- yahi mera bal hai. maian unake shil sankoch ko pakar hi to pragalbha banati hooan. maian apane ko unaki param priya prakat karati hooan sab sakhiyoan ke madhy poore darp se; kiantu kya nahian janati ki keval radha hi unhean sukhi kar sakati haian. ve hi unaki ahladini haian. maian sakhiyoan mean apane ko shreshth kitana bhi prakat karooan. itani ajn nahian hooan ki yah bhi n janati hoooan ki meri sima kya hai. lekin radha ko kya kahooan, yah itani bholi kyoan haian? mujhase milati hai to itana sneh, samman deti hai jaise yah svayan meri anuja hai. yah samajhati kyoan nahian ki maian sabake sammukh isaki avajna karati hooan, upeksha karati hooan. darpita dikhalati hooan apane ko. maian jo roop, gun, shil, sushama, saukumary mean isaki kisi sevika ke bhi samip baithane yogy nahian hooan, apane ko isase shreshtha dikhalati hooan aur yah hai ki mujhe atyant adar se aankamal deti hai. apane se adhik uttama manati hai. maian isake shil-vinay ka samman karooan to kahaan jaooan? ve isake haian, isi ke vash mean haian aur yah unaka dosh nahian hai. yah to radha ke anant saundary ka, shil ka prabhav hai, par maian pragalbha dhrishta n banooan to mujhako kabhi unaka samipy prapt hoga? maian aisi bhi hooan ki ve meri or aankh uthakar bhi dekhean? ve radha ko lekar van mean chale gaye ham sabako tyagakar. yah ve n karate to nishthur-nirday siddh hote. radha ko kahaan kabhi apana sukh smaran ata hai. yah to unaki sannidhi bhi sakhiyoan ko dekar suprasann hoti hai. isake sukh, isake samman ki raksha ve nahian kareange to karega kaun? ve isake sath hi paramahlad pate haian. yah ratri hai. saghan van hai aur isamean kantak haian, kush haian, pata nahian kitane kale vrishchik, kal bhujang kahaan chhipe hoange. ve sab mujhe katean- mujhe danshit karean! ve hriday-dhan aur unako anand de sakane mean samarth radha surakshit rahean! surakshit rahean ye sab sakhiyaan- isaliye to maian in sabake age chal rahi hooan. is abhagy mean bhi mujhe soojhata hai ki aj radha ki bhi sakhiyaan meri anugamini ban gayi haian. ye kitani sidhi haian sab! apani yootheshvari se prithak pak dakar kitani asahay ho rahi haian? mera darp, mera abhiman hi to mere yooth ki sakhiyoan mean pratiphalit hota hai. aj maian inaka mukh kaise pak d sakati hooan, ye mujhe sunakar mujhe prasann karane ke lie jo kahati hai, use chupachap sunane ke atirikt koee upay nahian. ye eershya ke karan kaise-kaise anuman lagane lagi haian. ek kahati haian- 'is vadhoo ke charanachihn itane samip haian unake pad chihnoan ke ki spasht ho jata hai, isake kandhe par bhuja rakhe ve gaye haian aur yah bhi unake kandhe par bahu rakhe unase sati gayi hai.'

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nandanandan

kram sankhya

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prishth sankhya

1.	mangalacharan
2.	apani bat	1
3.	prastavana	4
4.	maharshi shandilh‍y-kul parichay	13
5.	bhagavati poornamasi-madhumangal	24
6.	mata rohini-daoo ka janh‍m	31
7.	chandradev-baba-maiya ka parichay	40
8.	bhagavan bhash‍kar-shriradha-janh‍m	44
9.	maiya yashoda-simanh‍tan	47
10.	nanh‍d baba-shrikrishh‍n-janh‍m	53
11.	dhatri mukhara-janh‍moth‍sav	58
12.	bua nandini-shashh‍thi mahoth‍sav	63
13.	sanakadi kumar-pootana-moksh	69
14.	tuangi tayi-dugh‍dh–pan	80
15.	shukrachary–shridhar vipr	86
16.	maharshi lomash–shakat-bhanh‍jan	90
17.	shrigargachary–namakaran	99
18.	pivari tayi–bhoomh‍yupavesh	106
19.	nana sumukh–annaprashan	111
20.	kubala chachi–shaishav	118
21.	kakabhushundi–kri da	125
22.	maharshi durvasa–trinavart tran	132
23.	maharshi markanh‍dey–varshagaanth	137
24.	atula chachi-chir-chapal	141
25.	bua sunanh‍da-mrid-bhakshan	155
26.	phal-vikrayini	161
27.	vrishabhanu baba-sagaee	167
28.	viprarshi kanh‍v	171
29.	abhinanh‍d taoo-seva-samh‍man	179
30.	mallika mausi-sarvapriy	183
31.	ashvini kumar-karn-vedh	191
32.	madhumangal-makhan chori	196
33.	sharada-upalamh‍bh	204
34.	urvashi-ookhal-banh‍dhan	210
35.	yamalarjun	220
36.	chacha sannand-damodar-mukti	226
37.	kuber-bal-kri da	231
38.	daoo-vrikropadrav	235
39.	upanand taoo-gokul-th‍yag ka prash‍tav	238
40.	nanh‍dan chacha-vrinh‍davan ki or	243
41.	vishvakarma-nanh‍dagaanv	253
42.	rrishabh-naye sakha	257
43.	kirtti maiya-pratham parichay	261
44.	madhuri dasi-panaghat	267
45.	lakshh‍mi-godohan	274
46.	sadhu-sevak-vath‍s-charan	280
47.	tumbaroo-venu-vadan	287
48.	brahmarshi vashishth-vatsoddhar	294
49.	maharshi jajali-bakoddhar	299
50.	vishakha-parichay	305
51.	rangadevi-tulasi-poojan	309
52.	devi durga-vh‍yom-vadh	315
53.	yamaraj-aghoddhar	322
54.	kalinh‍di-van-bhojan	331
55.	brahma-vidhi-vh‍yamoh	337
56.	ganesh-gocharan	348
57.	subal-dadhi-dan	357
58.	vishal-sakha samooh	364
59.	garu d-kaliy-daman	368
60.	devarshi narad-dhenuk-dhvans	379
61.	devaguru brihaspati-pralamb-paritran	384
62.	shanaishchar-dhundha ki holi	388
63.	maharshi aangira-davagni-pan	393
64.	bahin ajaya-govardhan-poojan	404
65.	maharshi pulatsy-govardhan-dharan	410
66.	devaraj indr-govindabhishek	416
67.	patali nani-shanka-sagaee	421
68.	jaladhip varun-divy-darshan	425
69.	bhagavati katyayani-chir-haran	430
70.	budh-vipr-patniyaan	436
71.	shrikrishn-shriradha vivah	443
72.	kamadev-rasaka prarambh	447
73.	chandravali-ras mean man-bhang	454
74.	bhagavan shiv-maharas	462
75.	danavendr may-ajagar uddhar	466
76.	rahu-shankhachoo d-vadh	471
77.	sudevi-pramukh sakhiyoan ka parichay	475
78.	mangal-arisht- sanhar	477
79.	gayatri-keshi-krandan	481
80.	gramadev-akroor aye	486
81.	akroor-adabhut darshan	492
82.	viprapatni rritambhara-baba laute	495
83.	lalita-viyog-darshan	499
84.	bhasvara bhabhi-maan rohini mathura ko	503
85.	uddhav	507
86.	vrindadevi-daoo aye	515
87.	mahabhanu baba-kurukshetr se laute	519
88.	mangala dasi-dvitiy grahan-yatra	523
89.	shriradha	527
90.	bhadrasen	532
91.	rajarshi parikshit-upasanhar	543
92.	aantim prishth	546