nandanandan -sudarshan sianh 'chakr'
57. subal-dadhi-dan
'tujhe khya hai, too to poore din apane sakha ke sath rahata hai. vah tujhe kanhdhe par hath rakhe chipakaye ghoomata hai. tujhe ham sabaki khyoan chinhta hone lagi. ham usaka mukh dekhane ko tarasati rahati haian aur......lalita to rone hi lagi- 'tum saboan ko pata nahian bachhade़ charane ki khyoan soojh gayi thi. ab to too bhi usake sath gayean charayega. din bhar van mean khelega, koodega, oodham karega! ek din ghar baithakar dekh to pata lage ki hamari khya dasha hai! aj toone khyoan nahian bhojan kiya? too khyoan sabere se muanh banaye hai? too khyoan bar-bar dvar ki or bhagata hai? apani to sochata nahian aur bahin ki pooanchhata hai? ham to panaghat par tanik mil leti thian; usase bhi gayian.' sachamuch maianne yah to kabhi nahian socha maian kanhhaee ke bina rat mean ghar kaise rahata hooan, maian hi janata hooan. aj meri varshagaanth hai, van mean jane ko nahian mila. baba aur maiya ke kitana mana karane par bhi bhaiya shridam chala gaya gayean lekar. usaka jana hi uchit tha. maian to ghar rah hi gaya is varshagaanth ke baval mean, bhaiya bhi khyoan vhyarth mere mohan ke samip rahane se vanchit rahata. maianne hi use kah diya ki vah avashhy chala gaya. aj kanhhaee sabere hi milakar chala gaya mera hriday chhatapata raha hai. din pata nahian kitana b da ho gaya hai. pata nahian kab sanhdhhya hogi aur shhyamasunhdar lautega. varshagaanth mean khya-kya hua, mujhe kam hi pata hai. maian to yahi sochata rah gaya ki sakha van mean kahaan hoange, khya karate hoange. aj avashhy kanooan ujhjhval ya bhadr ke kanhdhe par apani vam bhuja rakhega. aj khya-khya karega vah? avashhy aj vah udas rahega. sada ke saman ulhlasit nahian rahega. apane subal ko bar-bar shmaran karega. vah bhi mere bina kahaan rah pata hai. kisi din tanik der ho jay, van mean tanik door kisi kunj mean ho jaooan to pukarane lagata hai, ulahana deta hai, dhooandhane chal deta hai- 'too kahaan chala gaya tha? ab tak kahaan tha? kya karane laga tha?' aj thak bhi jayaga to kisake kanhdhe par bhuja rakhakar vishram karega? kisake uru ko upadhan banakar soyega? kitana to sankochi hai. kisi se kahega bhi nahian ki thak gaya hai! bahut buri hai varshagaanth! maian kahooanga kal usase ki is asuri ko bhi mar de. yah ati hai to mujhe usake sath van mean jane ko nahian milata. vahi khyoan aj shighr nahian laut ata? itani der to ho gayi. gayoan ka pet kab ka charakar bhar gaya hoga. kuchh pahile aj a jay to khya use baba kuchh kahane vale haian? maiya to pratidin kahati hai ki ham sab van se shighr a jaya karean. |
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