shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari
144.shri prakashanand ji ka atmasamarpan
lalan-palan janhy kuchh sookshhm dvaitaansh shesh rah hi jata hai. haan, kanhta bhav mean dvait ka nam nahian. pathni apane man ko hi pati ke man mean nahian mila deti hai, kintu vah hriday se hriday ko milakar usaki sabhi cheshhtaean, sabhi kriyaean keval pati ke hi sukh ke nimitt hoti haian. usake liye apana astithv rahata hi nahian. vahaan n shvami-sevak-bhav hai, n aanshaanshi-bhav. vahaan to advait-bhav hai. pathni apane liye sukh nahian chahati. use apane sukh mean prasanhnata nahian hoti. usaki prasanhnata to priyatam ki prasanhnata mean hai. phyara prasanhn hai, isaliye use bhi prasanhn rahana chahiye, khyoanki phyare se prithak usaka astitv hi nahian. tab phyare se viruddh usaki koee cheshhta ho hi kaise sakati hai? isi ka nam madhur bhav hai, yahi sarvashreshhth bhav hai, isamean bhavanvit hue purush ki sabhi kriyaean band ho jati haian. usaka apanapan ekadam nashht ho jata hai. usaka sharir yanhtr ki tarah apane-ap hi tho di -bahut cheshhta karata rahata hai. aisa bhav kisi bhaghyavan purush ko hi prapht ho sakata hai. lakhoan mean khya karo do mean koee ek is bhag vale purush hote haian, phir unake darshan to kisi param saubhaghyashali purush ko hi prapht ho sakate haian. ap to shrikrishhn ke nijajan haian. apake liye kaun-sa bhav durlabh hai? bhagavan ne apako to apana kahakar varan kar liya hai. jise ve apana kahakar shvikar kar lete haian vahi is bhav mean dikshit ho sakata hai. yog- yajn aur jap-tap karake hi koee apane ko is bhav mean dikshit hone ka adhikari samajh baithe to yah usaki anadhikar cheshhta hi kahi ja sakati hai.'
athyanht hi din bhav se prakashananhd ji ne kaha- 'prabho! aj mera punarjanhm hua. maian apana param saubhaghy samajhata hooan ki bhagavan ne mujhe apani sharan mean le liya. ab mere punarjanhm ka nam rakh dijiye aur mujhe ajna dijiye ki maian kahaan rahooan aur khya karooan?'
prabhu ne premapoorvak kaha- 'prabodhananhd ji! apako bodh to pahale se hi tha, ab prabhu ki param kripa hone se apako prakarsh bodh hua hai. isaliye aj se prakashananhd ji ke shthan mean apaka nam prabodhananhd ji hua rahane ka ek hi tham hai, 'shri vrinhdavan dham, 'aur karane ka ek hi kam hai' shri vrinhdavan vihari ka aharnish nam-sankirtan. 'shrikrishhn-krishhn ratiye aur shri vrinhdavan mean basiye. isi mean param kalhyan hai! prani matr ke uddhar ka yahi sarvashreshhth upay hai.'
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