प्रेम सत्संग सुधा माला पृ. 86

prem satsang sudha mala

pyare sakha! upay nahian hai. lakh prayatn karo, shyamasundar ke hathoan se bhara hua premamay ghat, amritamay ghat tumhare yog ke khare samudr mean doobega hi nahian. oh! maian sachamuch pagal ho gayi hooan, kya-kya bak rahi hooan. kshama karana pyare sakha! maian hosh mean nahian hooan, yah pagali ka pralap hai. mere jale hue— jhulase hue hraday mean jnan nahian bach gaya hai ki maian vicharakar tumase bat karooan. kabhi kuchh, kabhi kuchh bakati hi chali ja rahi hooan.’ ‘pyare shyamasundar ke sakha! tum dekh nahian paoge; par yadi dekh pate to dekhate ki shyamasundar yahaan se kabhi kahian gaye hi nahian, ek kshan ke liye bhi kahian bahar nahian gaye. ve yahian haian, sada yahian rahate haian aur yahian raheange. maian rahooangi aur mere priyatam raheange. anant kal tak raheange. abhi-abhi kal ki bat hai. tumhean sunati hooan, kal sayankal ki bat hai. mere priyatam prananath van se gay charakar laut rahe the. maian us kshan ghar ke bhitar baithi thi, anubhav kar rahi thi ki shyamasundar to pas hi haian. itane mean vanshi baji, chet hua, socha, bhram ho gaya hai, shyamasundar to gay charakar abhi laut rahe haian. maian sunane lagi us murali ki madhur dhvani ko. mere nath, mere pranabandhu mera nam le-lekar murali mean sur bhar rahe the. bahar ayi, dekha— ah! kaisi anupam chhabi thi. nil kamal ke saman sundar mukharavind tha, shyam megh ke saman samast sharir sandhyakalin soory ki rashmiyoan mean jhalamal-jhalamal kar raha tha, mukh par dhooli ke kan u d-u dakar p d rahe the, sved ki kuchh booandean jhalak rahi thian, ghuangharali alakean bar-bar mukh par a jati thian aur mere pyare shyamasundar un alakoan ko bar-bar bayean hath se hatate rahate the. ah, un aankhoan ki shobha kya bataooan! turant ka khila kamal us shobha ke samane phika p d jata tha. mere hrideshvar bar-bar tirachhi chitavan dalakar mujhe dekh lete the. maian dekh rahi thi aur ve mastani chal se, atyant madhur chal se chalate hue meri or hi a rahe the. uddhav! uddhav!! maian moorchchhit hoti ja rahi thi, mujh par unaki manohar musakan jadoo ka kam kar rahi thi. itane mean hi ve bilakul mere pas se hokar nikale. mitr! kya bataooan? rok n saki maian apane ko; unamean mil jane ke liye, apane-apako unamean mila dene ke liye dau d p di. ve hansane lage, hansate-hansate lot-pot-se hone lage.