nandanandan -sudarshan sianh 'chakr'
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89. shriradha
ab yah bhi koee manane yogy bat hai ki jo mere jivan-sarvasv haian, pran haian, prem ke anant apar paravar haian, ve mujh apani padashrita ka parityag karake prithak ho sakate haian? lekin ve akroor a gaye the unhean mathura le jane. kya hua ki char din ko chale gaye bhi hoan to. vaise savadhan rahakar sochati hooan to yah bhi saty nahian lagata. ve ek din ko bhi to mere samip se kahian gaye nahian. un chatur-choo damani ne kisi prakar kans ko mar diya hoga. van mean nity hi to gocharan karane jate haian. kisi din char pad aur age mathura tak chale gaye hoange. ab isako lekar itani charcha, itani oohapoh logoan mean, mere man mean kyoan chala karati hai? ve uddhav a gaye the. vanamali sabako apanana hi to janate haian. kabhi uddhav ko bhi sakha svikar kar liya hoga. sab apane-apane bhav ke hi anusar to unhean dekhate haian. yahian vrindavan mean gopiyaan kya-kya kahati haian unake sambandh mean. uddhav bhi apane bhav ke anusar unhean dekhate haian. manate haian aur vaisi hi batean kahate haian. unhean lagata hai ki mere mayooramukuti unake sath sada mathura hi rahate haian. yahaan bhi to unake sab sakha yahi kahate haian- 'kanhaee mere sath hi rahata hai. mere sang hi khelata hai.' aisa hi uddhav ko lagata hai to kya ashchary. maian kyoan uddhav ki batoan ko lekar vyakul banati hooan? unake agraj padhare dvarika se. ve b de haian, b de dayitv haian unake. maian door se unake padoan ke sammukh bhoomi par mastak hi to rakh sakati hooan. ve to vatsaly ki moorti haian. sada mujhe unaka ashirvad mila hai. ve to jab avasar aya, yahi puchhavate haian- 'lali kya chahati hai?' mujhe kasht ho, aisi koee bat, koee kary unake dvara sambhav nahian. ve bhi apane anuj se prithak to nahian rah pate; kiantu sambhav hai ki mujh par atishay sneh ke karan anuj ko yahaan rakhakar kuchh kal ko mathura-dvarikavaloan ki dekhabhal karane chale gaye hoan. apane chhote bhaee ko ve tanik bhi shram karate dekhana nahian chahate. koee bhi kathinaee ki bat a p de to svayan age a jate haian. atah avashy koee kam hoga yadavoan ka, usake liye kuchh kal ko ve dvarika chale gaye. b doan ko bahut vyast rahana hi p data hai. ham balikayean unaki samasya kaise samajh sakati haian. kya avashyakata hai ki ham isamean apana sir khapavean. inake sneh-bhare kar ki shital chhaya shish par hai, yah hamara saubhagy. mujhase koee sakhi nahian kahati; kiantu sab paraspar sanket karati haian, kanoan mean phusaphusati haian, maianne suna hai aur isamean itana sankoch karane ki bat bhi kya hai. saty ko sunakar maian rusht kyoan hoooangi? yah to saty hai ki maian unmad-grasta hooan. yah koee aj ki bat to nahian hai. prarambh se-shaishav se maian kam hi savadhan rah pati hooan, yah mujhe pata hai. lagata hai ki mera yah unmad in dinoan vishesh badh gaya hai. |
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