shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari79. param sahriday nimaee ki nirdayata
ve sochane lage- ‘maian is abodh balika ke oopar yah kaisa anarth kar raha hooan. ise bina soochit kiye hue isaki behoshi mean maian ise sada ke liye tyag raha hooan. yah mera kam b da hi kathor aur nindaniy hai.’ phir apane ko savadhan karake ve sochane lage- ‘jivoan ke kalyan ke nimitt aisi kathorata mujhe karani hi p degi. jab ek or se kathor n banooanga to sansar ka kalyan kaise hoga? maya mean bandhe hue jivoan ko tyag-vairagy ka path kaise padha़ sakooanga? log mere isi kary se to tyag-vairagy ki shiksha prapt kar sakeangean.’ itana sochakar ve man-hi-man vishhnupriya ji ko ashirvad dete hue shayan-ghar se bahar hue. daravaje par shachimata behosh-si p di rudan kar rahi thian. unaki aankhoan mean bhala niand kahaan? ve to putr-vichhoharoopi shok-sagar mean dubakiyaan laga rahian thian. kabhi oopar uchhal atian aur kabhi phir jal mean dubakiyaan lagane lagatian. prabhu ne behosh p di huee du:khini mata ke charanoan mean man-hi-man pranam kiya. dhire se unaki charan-dhooli uthakar mastak par chadha़yi, phir unaki pradakshina ki aur man-hi-man prarthana ki- ‘he mata! tumane mere liye b de-b de़ kashht uthaye. mujhe khila-pilakar, padha़-likhakar itana b da kiya. phir bhi maian teri kuchh bhi seva nahian kar saka. mata! maian tumhara janm-janmantaroan tak rrini rahooanga, tumhare rrin se kabhi bhi mukt nahian ho sakooanga.’ itana kahakar ve jaldi se daravaje ke bahar hue aur dau dakar ganga-kinare pahuanche. |
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