shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari77. shachimata aur gaurahari
aho vidhatashtav n khvachiddaya bhaktoan ke mukh se nimaee ke sannhyas ki bat sunakar mata ke shok ka paravar nahian raha. vah bhooli-si, bhataki-si, kiankartavhyavimoodha-si hokar charoan or dekhane lagi. kabhi age dekhati, kabhi pichhe ko niharati, kabhi akash ki hi or dekhane lagati. mano mata disha-vidishaoan se sahayata ki bhiksha maang rahi hai. logoan ke mukh se is bat ko sunakar du:khini mata ka dhairy ekadam jata raha. vah vilakhati huee, roti huee, putr-viyogaroopi davanal se jhulasi huee-si mahaprabhu ke pas pahuanchi aur b di hi katarata ke sath kaleje ki kasak ko apani marmahat vani se prakat karati huee kahane lagi- ‘beta nimaee! maian jo kuchh sun rahi hooan vah sab kahaan tak thik hai?’ putr-viyog ko ashubh samajhane vali mata ke mukh se vah darun bat shvayan hi n nikali. usane golamal tarah se hi us bat ko poochha. kuchh anhyamanashk bhav se prabhu ne poochha- ‘kaun-si bat?’ hay! us samay mata ka hriday shthan-shthan se phatane laga. vah apane mukh se vah hriday ko hila dene vali bat kaise kahati? k da ji karake usane kaha- ‘beta! kaise kahooan, is du:khini vidhava ke hi bhaghy mean n jane vidhata ne samhpoorn apattiyaan likh di haian khya? mere kaleje ka b da tuk da vishhvaroop ghar chho dakar chala gaya aur mujhe marmahat banakar aj tak nahian lauta. tere pita bich mean hi dhokha de gaye. us bhayankar pati-viyogaroopi paha d-se du:kh ko bhi maianne keval tera hi mukh dekhakar sahan kiya. tere kamal ke saman khile hue mukh ko dekhakar maian sabhi vipattiyoan ko bhool jati. mujhe jab kabhi du:kh hota to tujhase chhipakar roti. tere samane isaliye khulakar nahian roti thi ki mere rudan se tera chanhdrama ke saman sunhdar mukh kahian mhlan n ho jay. maian tere mukh par mhlanata nahian dekh sakati! du:kh-davanal mean jalati huee is anashrita du:khini ka tera chanhdrama ke saman shital mukh hi ekamatr ashray tha. usi ki shitalata mean maian apane tapoan ko shaant kar leti. ab bhakhtoan ke mukh se sun rahi hooan ki too bhi mujhe dhokha dekar jana chahata hai. beta! khya yah bat thik hai?’ mata ki aisi karunapoorn katar vani ko sunakar prabhu ne kuchh bhi uttar nahian diya. ve dabadabaee aankhoan se prithhvi ki or dekhane lagi. unake chehare par mhlanata a gayi. ve bhavi viyogajanhy du:kh ke karan kuchh vishanhn-se ho gaye. |
tika tippani aur sandarbh
- ↑ are o nirdayi vidhata! tujhe tanik-si bhi daya nahian. too b di hi kathor prakriti ka hai. pahale to too sampoorn praniyoan ko premabhav se aur snehasambandh mean baandhakar ekatrit kar deta hai aur jab thik prem ke upabhog ka samay ata hai tabhi unhean ek-doosare se prithak kar deta hai. isase tera vah vyavahar abodh balakoan ke saman hai. (maloom p data hai toone kisi se sneh karana sikha hi nahian.) shrimadbha. 10/39/19
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