shri shrichaitany-charitavali -prabhudatt brahmachari43. shrivas ke ghar sankirtanarambh
gadadhar inake param antarang the. ye sada prabhu ki hi seva mean bane rahate. ek din ye bhojan ke anantar mukhashuddhi ke nimitt prabhu ko pan de rahe the. prabhu ne premavesh mean akar adhir balak ki bhaanti poochha- ‘gadadhar! bhaiya, tum hi batao, mere krishn mujhe chho dakar kahaan chale gaye? bhaiya! maian unake bina jivit nahian rah sakata. tum sach-sach mujhe unaka pata do, ve jahaan bhi hoange, maian vahian jakar unaki khoj karooanga aur unase lipatakar khoob petabhar ke roooanga. tum bata bhar do ki ve gaye kahaan?’ gadadhar ne bat talane ke liye kaha diya- ‘ap to vaise hi vyarth mean adhir hua karate haian. bhala, apake krishn kabhi apako chho dakar anyatr ja sakate haian? ve to har samay apake hriday mean virajaman rahate haian. yah sunakar apane usi adhirata ke sath poochha- ‘kya pyare krishn bhi mere hriday mean baithe haian?’ gadadhar ne kuchh der ke bad kaha- ‘baithe kyoan nahian haian. ab ve apake hriday mean virajaman haian aur sada hi rahate haian.’ itana sunate hi b de anand aur ullas ke sath prabhu apane b de-b de nakhoan se hriday ko vidaran karane lage. ve kahane lage- ‘maian hriday pha dakar apane krishn ke darshan karooanga. ve mere pas hi chhipe baithe haian aur mujhe darshan tak nahian dete. is hriday ko chir dalooanga. is prakar karate dekh gadadhar ko bahut duahkh hua aur unhoanne bhaanti-bhaanti ki anunay-vinay karake inhean is kam se nivaran kiya. tab ye bahut der ke bad hosh mean aye. ek din ratri mean prabhu shayya par shayan kar rahe the. gadadhar unaki charan-seva mean sanlagn the, charan-seva karate-karate gadadhar ne apana mastak prabhu ke padapadmoan mean rakhakar gadgad-kanth se prarthana ki- prabho! is adham ko, kin papoan ke parinamasvaroop shrikrishn-prem ki prapti nahian hoti? ap to dinavatsal haian, mujhe sadhan ka bal nahian, shubh karm bhi maian nahian kar sakata. tirthayatra adi puny karyoan se bhi maian vanchit hooan, mujhe to ekamatr shricharanoan ka hi sahara hai. mere oopar kab kripa hogi? prabho! kab tak maian isi prakar premavihin shushk jivan bitata rahooanga?’ unaki is prakar katar vani sunakar prabhu prasann hue aur unhean ashvasan dete hue kahane lage- ‘gadadhar! tum adhir mat ho, tum to shrikrishn ke atyant hi pyare ho. din hi to bhagavan ko sabase priy haian. bina din-hin bane koee prabhu ko prapt kar nahian sakata. jinhean apane shubh karmoan ka abhiman hai ya ugr sadhanoan ka bharosa hai, ve prabhu ki mahati kripa ke adhikari kabhi ho hi nahian sakate. |
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